i live in boston now, i've been reading a lot more, and i don't feel like this place is mine yet

at the end of april this year i packed up a car and drove from washington, dc to boston. i didn't have much of a plan, just a lease that started in june and some friends with generous families willing to house me until then. 

since then, i've started working in a nice store that sells design-oriented handmade wares, spent a lot of time reading (my current fave is station 11 by emily st. john mandel), and trying to connect with this place in a meaningful way so that i can photograph it. 

my friend kristie says she feels creepy for looking at this photo. i feel kind of creepy having taken it. it took me four shots to get the house where i wanted it, framed by the hill and the trees. 

my friend kristie says she feels creepy for looking at this photo. i feel kind of creepy having taken it. it took me four shots to get the house where i wanted it, framed by the hill and the trees. 

i have a really hard time photographing places i don't know and love, or at least feel an intimate connection to. my most favorite projects have all been born out of not just a desire to photograph a place but a need to document my relationship with space and the way i use it. my favorite photographs are intimate and personal, without ever being directly about me. the photos i've taken since moving to boston feel different. voyeuristic, almost. i don't feel like i have a right to this place quite yet. 

i like this image a lot. the shadows, the small light-leak in the upper left quadrant. the mysterious figure in the back. 

i like this image a lot. the shadows, the small light-leak in the upper left quadrant. the mysterious figure in the back. 

some really beautiful images have come out of this weird place i'm in but i'm not sure how to feel about them. they are beautiful on a surface level. i'm shooting on my favorite film (fp100c silk which you can hear me wax poetic about in this post), i'm shooting in a beautiful place (jamaica pond, in my new neighborhood of jamaica plain), i'm careful with my light. but putting them together in a way that makes me truly satisfied is a challenge. the individual images are good, but they don't feel like series or a project, which is pretty new for me. 

my favorite picture i've taken since getting here.

my favorite picture i've taken since getting here.

i'm working on being okay with this. i think ultimately, that personal and intimate work (as seen in "huntington" and "the ocean, the ocean") is the work in which i'm most interested. but this is really good practice. a new kind of image-making (for me), a little more removed, a little more focused on the image as an image and less on the image as a statement or story. and i think i'm okay with that for now. as i continue to live here and develop my relationship with my new neighborhood and city, i think my work will change. i'm really excited to see where it's going to go. and until then, i'm going to keep working on what i can.